“My experience of mental health services as a mixed-race* woman has been to resist a one-size-fits-all approach. I have spent a lot of time fighting my way out of boxes that I didn’t fit into and challenging misdiagnoses.”
That’s Stevie’s somewhat damning verdict on her mental health journey since her twenties. Having grown up in South London with an English mum and a Ghanaian dad, Stevie had a strict Catholic upbringing and went to a convent school. She struggled to accept her true sexual identity as a gay woman (which she knew from an early age) and literally prayed her way through the shame and guilt she felt.
“For many years, I continued to live in total denial of my sexual identity, which in turn adversely impacted my mental health,” says Stevie.
After going to University at 18 and completing a degree in psychosocial studies, Stevie’s mental health took a turn for the worse and she felt very depressed and anxious. She had always struggled being around people, had problems communicating with others, problems with how she learned and a stark dislike of change and a preference for predictability.
She had also experienced sexual abuse by a woman in her childhood and says that she thought that was “why I was queer”.